Book Fair Day!

So I am getting ready for Savanah's school 'book fair; this morning, and I have to say, I am excited, but also a bit worried. I can't even express how it makes me feel to know how few parents will actually be there. I just don't understand why more parents don't care. Yes, I realize that it's a Thursday, and most parents don't have as flexible of a schedule as I do, but, with over a month of advance notice, how hard is it really to get a day off? It's just sad that people don't care. Even when her school hosts movie or craft nights, and free dinner is provided very few people actually come, although it seems that when they offer free dinner the attendance increases drastically. Don't parents realize that if they want their children to be successful, to excell, they have to be involved in their children's lives. It makes me think of another parent that I know who does her daughter's homework instead of helping her learn the assignment. I would be withholding a great deal of what I feel if I didn't bring up the whole fertility issue. It's just not right that people who could care less about their children's academic 'career' can have babies all day, yet people who truly care about the development of their children have to struggle. I think we should not only be able to preform a citizen's arrest, but a citizen's custody intervention. Why can't I just bring home the babies that parents let play on busy roads with no supervision. I recently saw a woman spank her maybe 2 year old daughter who was playing out front of her triplex unsupervised after the baby smashed her fingers in an industrial mop bucket. Spank her!? The poor little girl was crying almost hysterically from the pain; it would amaze me if her fingers weren't actually broken, and instead of offering comfort or realizing that by not watching her daughter, she might as well have smashed her daughter's fingers herself, her first reaction was to inflict pain on her child. Disgusting. Absolutely disgusting.  Time for me to get ready to actually be an involved parent! I'm excited!

The Begining

      This blog is mostly for me, so I can let out all the things I am keeping in, but, if my friends and family read it, maybe they will know the things that I am just not so good at letting out. I'm pretty outgoing, but when I think about it, there is so much in my day to day life, good and bad, that I just, keep inside. But that's not healthy, and even if I am the only one to read this, it will be good for me. 

       I realize that I am going to have a great bit of time on my hands over the next few weeks, and will need something to do with myself while I am, well, unable to do much else. I am the kind of person who prefers several irons in the fire, but, I guess life is going to be slowing me down. In a lot of ways, I am pretty worried about it. How will Mark possibly be able to do all this? Will Savanah understand why she can't cuddle with me (which happens so rarely, but is such a treat when she does...)? What about my puppy? How will he feel laying next to me, unable to really visit with me for a little bit for fear that his big old feet will be used as weapons. 

       Then of course, I have my thoughts on doing this surgery. The risks are very minor, only two risks really. Am I selfish for wanting this? Is it fair for my family to even have to deal with me out of commission for a few weeks for something that might not work. Am I crazy for wanting this so bad? Will this actually make the pain go away???

       But then maybe, just maybe, it will work. Maybe we will get what we have been wanting for so long. I just don't know if I can continue to handle the massive disappointment month after month.  


Info on the surgery can be found here : Ovarian Wedge Resection